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Its my birthday today...

2010-11-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

我对于你,只是场意外;你对于我,却是一场爱情.
一个人自以为刻骨铭心的回忆,别人早已经忘记了.
有些人的恋爱,仅仅是爱上了“恋爱”.
专一不是一辈子只喜欢一个人,是喜欢一个人的时候一心一意.

I will get over you just like how you get over me.
You knew how hard I am getting over you, how much strength I have to put in to get you out of my head, yet you could pretend nothing happen.

Do you even know that I hurt even more when knowing that you pretend nothing happen?

Have I been forgotten by you, my dear boy?
Do you even remember that its my birthday today?

I have waited till 12am, 27 Nov 2010.
Not a single text/call from you...

What should I do now?

You always make my heart skip a beat.

2010-10-19T01:04:00.004+08:00

Havnt really been blogging for a period of time. But I am back!
Alot things have been happening these days. Friendships, relationships etc. It got me really tired of life. Finally, my body can't take it anymore. Had a really high fever and I had to rest at home for days.

But after all these that had happen, I realised and learn alot.
Life is a series of pulls back and forth. Sometimes you want to do something, yet you are bound to do something else. Certain things hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. Humans constantly want to make the right decision, but sometimes you just gotta make the decision right.

Found this online-
Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Don't get mad when a girl cares too much. Worry when she starts to not give a crap.
You still played a cast in my script...

I miss you, my dear boy.

My forever best friend.

2010-10-01T02:59:00.003+08:00

Our last taken photo:

Remember those days...
We used to cry so much for each other when we quarrel.
We used to scold each other vulgurities.
We used to roam around singapore doing nothing.
We used to lepak around viok decks.
I used to go down Republic Poly to meet you.
We used to talk on the phone almost everyday.
We used to slack at your house doing nothing.
During sec school times, we used to meet up early in the morning, eating breakfast at 7-11.
We used to skip schools together.
We used to get late for school each other and go each other house.
We used to order the same food and drinks.
We used to spazz about anything and everything under the moon.
Remember how you and chongjinghui surprise me during my birthday.

We used to smoke, do illigel things together.

We used to .........

We had so many used to.

Are we going to create more used to?

I have got so many things to tell you, so manay things to complain to you.

You are the only one that know me inside out.

I need you alot, 毛毛. :(

We did not get to celebrate our 5th year anniversary this year.

I hope we will get to celebrate next year?

I miss you, my BFF. :(

P/s: I still kept the letter you gave me during sec 4. :)

Time will tell, fate will decide.

2010-05-17T01:14:00.013+08:00

Hang out with my girlfriends yesterday.
Pictures speak a thousand words.

Photos spam!! :D

From just friends, become good friends, then close friends, best friends and friends that I can't live without. :)

♥♥♥

I didn't know since when my heart start to skip beats when your name is being mention. :)

Somewhere, someone knows the words to the songs you sing.

2010-05-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

Just realise,
I stop seaching for your name first to check if you are online.
I stop checking my phone for your text msgs.
I stop checking on your facebook.
Your face stop appearing in my mind before I go to sleep every night.
The memories stop flashing through my mind.
I stop repeating the same old song again and again.

After that day, I stop lingering in the past.
My heart stop skipping beats for you.
I stop loving you, M.

I can't love you or say goodbye

2010-05-15T17:47:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings!~

Shirley is back in blogging. Hahaha.

These few days or rather these few weeks, I have been spending my time with my scandal, Winnie Wong Jing Yi.

BYEEEE!~

Am I?

2010-05-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

I think I am falling in love ... Am I? ^^V

Baby, tell me how can I tell you I love you more then life.

2010-04-19T13:37:00.003+08:00

HIHI PEOPLE!~

I think I have got wonderful friends. HAHA.
They will come down and visit me for work when they are free. hehehe.

毛毛and ChongJingHui came down to find me. :D

Went back to school to sign some document from my teacher. So long since I step back into Simei ITE. LOL. Then meet up with Winne in school and off for Kbox session.

Movie with Winnie after my work.

我现在已经搞不清楚, 你是友情还是错过的爱情...

Last night... the longest conversation we had since 7months ago...

I’ve always been haunted by the memories of us.

2010-04-11T22:53:00.008+08:00

Yawns!~
Shirley @ work again...

Winnie came over to accompany for work yesterday. She spent the whole day sitting in front of my lappy talking to her eyecandy. -.- Fyi, her computer spoilt. Lol.

Anyway, I have receive those photos from Winnie! Hahaha.

Pictures speaks a thousand words. :)

All snaped by baobei. HAHAHAHA.

Thats all for today. I will be back tmr! :D

One of the hardest things for me was watching you walk away.

Tell me, is it too late for us?

2010-04-10T20:33:00.003+08:00

HI PEOPLE!

I just came back from an outing with my dearest girlfriends;
Samantha, Winnie and XiangNing.
Although we get to know each other only like months (okay, not Samantha. I know her for years already! LOL! =/ ), but they never fail to bring me laughters. :D
Thanks these 3 peoples for being there when I suddenly get emo few days ago. Hahaha.
From strangers to friends to good friends to best friends!

Baobei, Winnie and XiangNing, I LOVE YOU GUYS!! :D

Photos are still with Winnie, so I shall post all the photos in the next post. :D

Photos with 2 japanese girls. Their skin are so good! Like baby faces. Hahaha.

Obviously we are not ready and Winnie went snap. -.- Candid shot.

天底下的男人都是一样的~~

Hor Baobei and Xiangning? Hahahaha. LOL!

After that night, my heart went empty...

You will never know.

2010-04-07T17:00:00.002+08:00

I have got so many things to tell you.

But I never had the courage.

Wanted to tell you how much I miss you, how much I want you back.

Wanted to add you back in facebook and msn.

But I am afraid.

How I wish, when my phone rang, it is you...

I need someone to be there right now, but it seems thats no one understand how i feel, how mush I need someone now.

Eyes are getting teary, and no one even care.

I need a shoulder to cry on, everyybody said they will be there, but talk is cheap.

Fine. I can handle all this on my own.

Yes, I can.

Shirley miss her long long hair.

2010-04-06T23:15:00.005+08:00

I MISS MY LONG LONG HAIR. :(

M, I miss you just so suddenly.
Memories are flowing back.

Can I have you back?
:'(

This photo is once your phone's wallpaper.
Is this photo still in your phone? :(

Shirley @ Work

2010-04-06T12:58:00.002+08:00

HI HI!~

Shirley is lazy lazy lazy lazy!~
Currently working now.
My laopos is coming over to visit me.
Miss them so so much. :)

Just did manicure and pedicure before work. :)
Love my colour colour nails. Hehehe.

I have got loads of photos to blog.
But I am lazy. Hahaha.
Cya people! <3 <3

Cause I just want you here tonight.

2009-12-26T23:05:00.006+08:00

Hello bloggy!

Cityhall with YuenMei.
Lepak, lepak and lepak. Singapore is getting more and more boring.
I am so gonna leave for Korea or Taiwan if I got the money. Hehehe.

YuenMei brought me chocolates from Gold Coast! Muacks muacks! (K)

Anyway, I met a wired guy just now at City Hall. Zz!
This is the conversation I had with him.

He: I tell you a secret. Don't tell your friend about it kay?
Me: Ohh. Okay.
He: I got a camera in my eyes. I can shoot people.
Me: Huh? *looking into his eyes, finding the camera*
He: If you don't believe me, go to (I forget the website.).

Me: What the fuck. -.-

I told YuenMei about it after she came back. And she burst out laughing. lol.

Feat YuenMei.

Alrighty. I need my sleep now!

Night peep-po!!!!

Tempatation Of Wife

2009-12-17T11:30:00.005+08:00

Hello bloggy. Long time no see.

Its holiday now!
Holiday is definetly meant for drama marathons. :D

And now I am so into Tempatation Of Wife 妻子的诱惑. *All tumbs up*

It is also shown in ChannalU on every monday to friday, 7pm.

Anyway, I have change my blog song to the theme song of this drama. :D

Nice ttm lor! ★

Meeting Baobei later. Gotta go prepare!

Bye people!

★★★★★

Its just too little too late.

2009-12-06T14:00:00.008+08:00

Loved and not loved.
The right time, the wrong person.
The wrong time, the right person.
Isn't this what love is about?

We have no way to control it at all.
Alot of things, if you did not treasue it at that moment, it will be gone forever.
Once you lost it, somethings just wouldn't be the same anymore.

Didn't wish to hurt anyone around me,
so I learn to give up, learn to keep everything to my own.
All I want is just a smile,
telling me that you're happy with your life right now.
And then I will tell myself that I will meet a better one.
I can also be very happy with my life.

Maybe we aren't familiar enough with the rule of this game
Progressing too fast, falling very deep
Thinking that we are able to withstand
Almost had the both of us shoot died internally.
But at least I am strong enough, brave enough and generous enough to respect your decision.
Slowly letting time washed away everything and return to a friend identity.

Maybe I am too mature in love this thing
Having experienced the sadness and heartbreak again and again,
I could still able to continue to love.
But I know that at the rest of my life,
I will still have to experience more and face more challenges.

Maybe, it is only when you step in the church,
take an oath with your husband in front of everybody,
then you will realise, all you ever wanted is just as simple.

★★★★★

Hehehe.

2009-12-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

As requested by friends that don't have a google account,

I decided not to private my blog anymore!

Hahaha.
:D

★★★★★

BULLSHITS.

2009-12-04T04:00:00.004+08:00

I am a person that hate to beat around the bush.
I hate it when people did that to me too.

If you understand me? All thumb ups for you.
Don't understand me? Then don't fucking self-made smart.

In the end, it just lead us to the road of being strangers.

The things that i care; life that I want,
is really very simple.

However, the simpler it seems, the harder it get.

★★★★★

2009-12-01T17:27:00.007+08:00

Spend so much time on editing this STAR, which is currently my addiction.

Since there won't be any photos in this post, let me post this up kay?

Hehehe. Tyvm.

Sorry for the unannounced MIA. Totally lost the mood for blogging and I am sick for the past few days.
I didn't even have the mood to celebrate my birthday either!

I spent my 2009 18th birthday at home.

Its totally what-the-fuck.

Glad that Yuru and Angeline came over to give me an expected surprise.

Silly them, but still, it touches me. :)

They bought me a cake and my favourite sushi. Hehehe.
Photos are with Yuru.

Shall post it up when she send me. :)

Anyway, I finally collect my HP mini lappy!

Erhem, currently using it. :D

I will be back; promise. ^^V

★★★★★

Just give me a minute to restart my heart.

2009-11-25T01:35:00.003+08:00

Hi hi people!
I should be sleeping at this timing! Damn!
Just realise that I havn't been blogging so much like I used to.
Somehow, I am started to get tired of life, of everything.
Hahahaha. Alrighty, no emo-emo posts.

After blogging some photos, I am gonna get some sleep for tomorrow's school! :D

Few days ago.

Oh well, it seems that you are the only motivation left for school. :)

12.00a.m

2009-11-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

5 more days to my birthday.
You said you always looked forward to my birthday, you said you wanted to celebrate my birthday together with me.
But now, it had all turned to memories.
Sometimes I wonder, when you looked at the calendar, will you still remember that my birthday is coming?
But today, I have got to wake up and face the reality.

I gave you one last chance till today's 12.00a.m.
In the end, yes, its exactly what I expected.
What I have to say, I have already said in the text.

Everything deleted.

爱狠狠哭完的那一天
我也该忘记你的脸

Goodbye to 21Aug2009.
Everything ended at 21Nov2009; 12.00am.

I learned,
If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

You was never meant to be mine.

I can't find myself in your eyes anymore.
My image in your eyes are slowly fading away.

Baby, you don't have to do this.

2009-11-20T14:20:00.004+08:00

Crappy weather cause people to get sick easily.
I am one of those people. -.-
Currently down with fever and flu, hopefully I will recover before Sunday! I seriously need a haircut! Damn.

Anyway, school is fine this few days. My C.A is surprisingly treating me and my clique so nicely that we get to be suspisious. Hahaha.

&& I saw my eyecandy yesterday! Whoohoo!~

A bunch of lazy pigs!~

Rain rain go away ~ Come again another day! ~

Anyway, thanks ah Nisa. LOL!

The photo is too disgusted to put in my blog.

Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen;
but its even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.

Fooled by you once again.

2009-11-13T11:02:00.002+08:00

Hello peopleeeee!

I have got some photos from Rika baby's BBQ!
Chui face and messy hair because of the, so-many-wind and so-many-sun. (inside joke. hehehe.)

Home-ed with Heikel, Apen, Gaby, Syaza, Syaza's friend, Aidah, Yan and Gabriel at 8plus pm.

THE CRUCIAL THING ABOUT LOVE IS NOT TO LIE..
cause humans tend to use 10 other lies to cover the first lie.

I just can't believe that I am being fooled by you once again.
I got to learn how to hate you.
& now, I finally take up my courage to delete your number.

Shirley, you have to be strong.

Don't ever date a "GAMER".

2009-11-10T01:58:00.003+08:00

Was blog-hopping and happen to see this.
I only kope the number 9. Lol.

The top 9 kind of guys we shouldnt date;

Number 9) The Game Boy

"Nothing wrong with a man and his game console...unless he chooses it over you."

"In a way, gaming to men is what shopping is to women - therapy. But, that doesn't mean we shop all the time. The absolute danger sign ladies, is when he calls in sick at work because (a) he didn't sleep the night before battling zombies or (b) he needs the day to advance to the next level. When that happens, either 'accidentally' trip and spill a mug of hot tea over the console, or, if you fear that may endanger your life lest he rage at you, just leave his keys by the door and leave. You'll be better of for doing it."

Fuck you, Dota. _!_

Words that are left unspoken.

2009-11-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

HALLOOOOO PEEPS!

Out to Rika baby's birthday bbq at ECP just now. Its like a small class gattering. Hahaha.
Photos will be up when I receive photos from them! :D

Okay, I have got some long-long-ago photos.

Feat Yuru baby!
I-also-dont-know-why-the-size-of-her-photos-in-the-camera-is-like-that-one.

She's trying out the smoke effect. Lol.

Feat YuenMei baby!

Don't judge its book by its cover, we are nice people. :)

Seriously I don't feel like going to school tomorrow,

but I have to prove to Junwei, so I am going to school tomorrow.

What-the-hell.

BYEEEEEEE! (L)

Copymeow meow meow!~

2009-11-05T14:42:00.007+08:00

Actually I didn't want to blog it out but you are getting on my nerves already.

Good one girl. Even the song that I dedicated to my ex-bf, you also wanna copy.
Whats more you wanna copy from me? :)
Just found out that I have lots of stalker(s) and copymeow(s) around me. -.-
And it makes me realise that I choose the right choice by privating my blog. =]

Blog Blog Blog!~

I almost forget about my blog! Hahaha. Imma so excited for next week cause I am going to collect my own mini lappy!!!~

*jump around happily*

Oh yeah, last friday, I went to Night Safari Halloween with Cindy 毛毛 and 2 ah bengs. lol.
Didn't get to take photos with those ghosts because of the stupid rain. As quoted by my buddy, "Ghosts also scared of rain." LOL.

Feat Cindy 毛毛!

Singing session with Cindy毛毛 and Jinghui.
Old school songs for the day.

Feat Cindy 毛毛 and JingHui!

Expo with cliques after school. (L)

Yuru, you this cbk, faster send me photos leh! :(

Your words pierce me real deep.

2009-10-28T20:20:00.005+08:00

Can anyone tell me what love really is?

Today is just another typical day for me.

My new timetable totally sucks.
Should I go to school tomorrow?

I want shopping with Yuru leh!~

Anyway, I am going to Night Safari Halloween this friday!

So excited.

Okay, till then. My eyes are closing soon.

Bye!

Night!~ (L)

Never gonna get used to it.

2009-10-25T12:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, firstly, I know you guys will started asking me why I private my blog. Hahaha.
But I am not gonna say out here. Ask me in msn/text/call or when we meet up! :D
Anyway, I hate stalkers. :D

Angel baby, we can survive without guys. Why still linger in the past when they don't even fucking give a damn? Why should we still keep torturing ourselves when they had already move on without us? Cheer up alright? You still got us. (L)

Okay, school is indeed boring. Didn't attend school for 3 days. :S And Friend keep calling me to go school. Oh god. But really boring neh. Feel like quiting school. :S ITE clique, don't scold me. HAHAHAHA. Anyway, its been long since I post some photos I took with my ITE clique. :D

Feat Yuru baby!

Meeting Angel baby later.

Till then!~

(L)

M, the guy I once loved.

2009-10-17T21:57:00.005+08:00

放弃去猜该如何留住你因为我选择不再爱你了.
我会微笑的和你说再见.

And he said with a smile on his face,
"Next time when we go out we shall take so many pictures."
His breath so close I feel butterflies.

Everythings' gone.
I didn't want to think of you anymore, so I am trying hard not to hate you.
I will stop following your life, stop checking on your facebook.
Since you don't lack of girls in your ife, I shall step back and turn the other way.

Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they’re also what tear you apart.

SWEET-TALKER-MOTHER-FUCKER.

2009-10-16T21:29:00.007+08:00

Hongster never die. _!_

I fucking regret.

Kanninabehchaocheebye.

Cindy, Yuru, Buddy and "SISTER", where are you guys? :(

EYECANDY!! (L)(L)

2009-10-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

Today school is so freaking boring at first, cause alot people didn't attend school.

But, at the end of school, my eyecandy(L) make my day. :D

I spent my friday at home. What a pathetic friday I have. -.-

"SISTER", you are so gonna get it from me on Monday if I see you in school!

Hahaha!

Baby cousin! Isn't he cute? +.+

Won't you just go aww when looking at him? :)

你是心中的第三个愿望,不能说

2009-10-15T08:42:00.004+08:00

Shit lah (!)
I miss school today like again. Zz.
Maybe going down to lepak with the guys later on.
Just realise that alot of my friends that ended their relationship about the same time as me, are now attached again. Hahaha. Patching-up season right now? Hahaha.

And now, I miss childhood time. :]

Aww.

Where is the "Backspace" button in life?

2009-10-14T15:56:00.004+08:00

Alright, previous post deleted.
Things are getting complicated, but, somehow, someday, somewhat, it'd turn out for the better.
Told myself that I gotta be a optimistic person.
And I will.

And now I wonder since when it began.

2009-10-13T19:42:00.004+08:00

School is getting more and more boring.
Didn't attend school today due to lazy-ness. So headed to meet C to woodlands.
Get well soon, C. (L)
Damn it, I really need to get down to study. :(
Okay, I think I have been dragging some really old photos. So I am updating now! :]

Yesterday, headed to Bukit Batok with "SISTER", Yangee after school and had some long talk.

Last week,
Feat Angel baby.

Feat QiuRong.

You make me smile once again. (:

I wonder how it all began.

2009-10-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

Blogger is still the sex yo. \m/
So I am back with blogger. Start everything afresh here.
Click back my old blog if you wanna see my old posts. :D
Post will be flooded will piccas, piccas and more piccas!

Feat Yuen Mei.
Fuck it, I lost some nice nice photos with her. :(

More photos in the next post.
:D
Bye bye! =]